“Lord, I am not worthy to receive You. Yet, it is you who makes me worthy. So I give myself to You as Your little heaven. Do with me what You will. Fill me with Your love so there is no room left for me and my pride.”
This is the prayer I say every time before going up to receive the Holy Eucharist at Mass. I used to pray that God would make my soul worthy to receive Him. But I realized that truly we are never worthy.
None of us are worthy to receive the God of the universe into our soul. Yet, God chooses out of the overwhelming generosity of His love to enter into us and make us like Him because we become spiritually and physically united to Him.
All He is asking us is to humbly offer ourselves to Him so that He has the freedom to transform us. And when we do, we become like little heavens.
Often, it is said that when we receive Jesus in the Eucharist we are like tabernacles carrying Jesus within us. However, I also like to think of us a little heavens, not hiding Jesus away, but being used as a point from which He can pour His love to others.
Heaven is beyond our comprehension in beauty and wonder because it houses our God. When we let God enter our soul, we will probably never comprehend what transformation takes place within us. Our soul is taken over by God and now can be used as a spiritual vessel from which His grace and love goes to other people.
“It is not to remain in a golden ciborium that He comes down each day from Heaven, but to find another Heaven, the Heaven of our soul in which He takes delight.”
St. Therese of Lisieux
All it takes is a humble act of surrender and an open heart to receive Him and be chosen as God’s own special little heaven.
If you want to read further on what happens when we receive the Holy Eucharist, Sr. Mary Ann Fatula does a beautiful job: https://catholicexchange.com/the-eucharist-foretaste-of-heaven